思念 II

说再见

总是令人伤感

幸运的是

我们都活在同一片天空下

距离是远的

心却很近

每次分离

也只为更多的思念

五月二十一日，夜

叫思念不要吵。。。

Mid May 2012

It’s been 3 weeks since I’ve returned from Tokyo and I just can’t describe how much I miss Japan. 

Moving on with life….

Flew to Hong Kong from 4th – 9th May specially to attend Tang Chi Wai’s debut concert. This was my first time flying with Cathay Pacific and I was lucky enough to be upgraded from Economy class to Business class. It was certainly a very leisurely flight. Let me be fair and make a just comparison.

Economy Class (be it SQ, Cathay, Silkair)…

1) Wailing babies. I get this on EVERY SINGLE flight I have with the Economy class. Sometimes it gets SO unbearable that I can’t even decide if I should continue sleeping, blast music in my ears or simply go up to the parent of the child and STARE. STARE. STARE. Hahaha.

2) Chair-kicking competition. Uhm, regardless of whatever airline you’re taking and/or whatever minimal leg space there seems to be, please keep your legs to yourself, thanks.

Business Class (in reference to Cathay Pacific)

1) Extremely attentive and meticulous service. They address you by your surname and are constantly smiling (hahaha I don’t know if it’s me but I really feel like I don’t get constant smiles in Economy Class).

2) Seat so comfortable and spacious that I’d probably compare it to Andy Lau’s OSIM massage chair.

3) Very very good food. I think I must have looked like a pig because I ate ALOT.

Yay to free upgrade!

Back to the topic. Tang Chi Wai’s concert was definitely a concert not to be missed!! He is the man behind all the great songs, one of the best songwriters, actually arguably the best, in the media industry in Hong Kong. His music doesn’t just touches your heart. His music makes you believe that you’re going through whatever he’s going through. His music allows you to see more than what you thought you could see and feel more than what you thought you could feel. His music is simply amazing. It was a really great concert with many artistes performing all the songs he’s composed over the years, from theme songs of TVB drama serials to songs which Raymond Lam will forever be remembered for. 3 hours wasn’t enough. In fact, it felt like it was just the beginning. Looking forward to his next concert. Also looking forward to Linda Chung’s debut concert. Can’t wait!! These people keep my passion for music and for singing going

Had lots of great food in Hong Kong, as usual. Had my all-time favourite Mongkok ice cream. Its quality is way lower than B&J’s or Haagen Daz. But for some unknown reason, this is a must-eat whenever I’m in Hong Kong and 3 scoops please, while I’m at it Chocolate, Mango, Mint. I actually really love ice cream (absolutely no link as to why I’m an ice cream girl, though). I think ice cream really lifts one’s spirits. If you’re happy, ice cream makes you happier. If you’re sad, ice creams makes you happy. Ice cream is the saying behind “laughter is the true medicine.”

6 days was definitely too short for me, despite the fact that this was my third trip back in half a year. Oh well, things come to an end, good or bad. While awaiting to board the plane, unlike others who were lounging around reading/texting/chatting, I was busy admiring the sunset and realised that I’m beginning to treasure every single moment of nature I get in the midst of the busy city life I lead. My above weibo reads “Sunset. A very comfortable feeling. Perhaps this is a beautiful ending. Or perhaps, this is a beautiful start. Our so called future, what is it actually like?” Hmm. Okay it obviously sounds nicer in Chinese than it does in English because upon translating it, I think it sounds too literal and has lost the essence which I tried to deliver. But for the benefit of my monolingual friends… yes, I am a nice friend

With Rou Urn – 2 years of fighting battles together.

With Mr Tan, MI’s principal, also the man behind the theory of aeroplanes. Students = aeroplanes = having the ability to fly when giving proper guidance and care.

Post Hong Kong was just work, work and work. That being said, I quit my ice cream job few days back because two part-time jobs is just too much I have on my hands. I’m currently tutoring 5 kids (English, Lit, GP) ranging from PSLE to A level.  Still looking into taking more kids. Last Saturday, I attended MI’s Institute Day. Really glad that I made it to the top 10% of the cohort, considering how I was never top 20% of MI’s cohort each time they flashed the list of top students. Understandable… kept failing Math and Geog all the way until I finally told myself that this cannot go on and that I’ve to look for a solution that will solve the root problem. The only solution I can offer to you is: love it. When you love something/someone, sacrifices seem less painful (No I’m not gonna say that it’s not painful at all because I don’t get blinded by love lol). Also, when there’s love, there’s willingness to embrace and accept all that comes with it, especially subjects like Math where all it encompasses is numbers, graphs and statistics. When you accept it, you’ll understand it better, get along with it, and naturally do well with it. It’s like chemistry between two people, you know. Just that you have to take the first step because Math is actually a very very passive lover. Hmm, I’m really glad and appreciative of my results. Sincerely contented. Life is never perfect. That’s what I’ve learnt, and also the reason why I never aimed to score straight As in the first place. All along, I just wanted to do things I wanted and enough that’ll make me happy

With (hopefully) more time on my hands now that I’ve quit my ice cream job, I’m gonna start being hardworking and learn Japanese! Purchased these books recently because even though I was only in Japan for 8 days, I realised I pick up languages really fast and should take it further by doing some self-study. However, given that I’m not into Japanese dramas/manga/etc, I foresee my learning speed to be snail-pace like, unless I find a Japanese friend that can practice speaking Japanese with me. Okay, I did think of registering with Ikoma Language School but admittedly, I might just get lazy cause it’s all the way in town (say hello to the west-zoner once again!).

五月十七日，晴天

我今天中了運動毒。Headed for the gym and ran on the treadmill for 60 mins (6.5km) followed by 50 crunches and 20 laps in the pool. Feels so good to do such an intensive workout especially since my attempt to run yesterday failed terribly (school gym was closed and I barely survived 3 rounds on the track cause the 1pm sun was close to getting me to suffer a heatstroke).  做運動的感覺超好。跑了一個鐘。一向對跑步沒興趣的我，平時最多只會跑2公里左右。但今天，雖然我跑到很累很累，但我發覺，原來當我跑到30分鐘，捱過頭30分鐘的辛苦，其餘的’路’ 並不是我想像中的難和辛苦。跑了6.5公里，之後是很累，但很值得。

將近三個星期沒游泳了，今天進入水里的感覺好舒服。雖然沒魚兒，但我時不時會懷念幾年前在馬來西亞的一個島上和魚兒們一起游泳。你一伸出手餵牠們，自然而然的，魚兒們就圍繞著你，繽紛彩色，很漂亮，很舒服。海底世界，你真的讓人沉迷在一個平靜的世界裡。脫離城市生活的一切，在水里，我彷佛在自己的世界。以後有機會，我一定要去馬爾代夫。一定，一定。馬爾代夫，你等我。

五月十五日，夜

我和音樂從小一起長大的。從沒想像過無音樂的日子，因為音樂有能力表達連我自己有時都無法表達的喜怒哀樂。曲子，歌詞，MV，這首歌只能用兩個字形容- 完美。音樂，它是我身邊的知己。雖然無影子，但它一直都在。

 

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五月十四日，夜

今晚的心情平靜了很多，少了前幾天的亂和無助。今晚，我和一個在這十四年以來對我不離不棄的朋友坦白了我心裡的無助和擔心。短短的一個鐘，我將我心裡所有的想法都告訴了她。我很開心，開心自己的想法和好友的想法都一樣。我們兩都認為時間是很多事情的關鍵。我沒法預知將來，但此時此刻的我感覺很溫馨。溫馨是因為我擁有著一個很真實的感覺。就因為太真實，我頓時也有一絲絲的害怕。 。 。真實中是否有一點的不真實？人會變。 。環境會變。 。真實不真實。 。同樣的，只有時間能看得出一切。雖然理智的我知道這不是一個易走的路，但我知道我真的很想走下去。以前的我從來不會做沒信心的事，不會打沒把握的仗。但這次，我很想跟著感覺走。這感覺。 。是我二十年以來從來都未有的感覺。會否是永恆不是終點。這一刻已經是一生一世了。